Life As We Know It

"Life as we know it" - JJ and I just saw that movie in theaters, and for those who haven't seen it, it's a pretty cool one. Without giving away the whole story line, I was faced with the realization that with Little Anthony on the way, JJ and I should probably fill out a will and designate the people who should care for him should anything awful ever happen to both of us. And watching that movie, I was also faced with the fact that life is so incredibly precious. I can't imagine not being able to see him grow up, or not having JJ by my side to complete the intended team in raising him.  I know I can't get wrapped up in what might or could happen one day, but it sure is a scary thought.

Not only that, but I'm overwhelmed looking ahead into the future. God is trusting me to be a Mom to this little boy, and I really have no clue how to perform this job. It is such a great responsibility. I feel like it's the biggest and most rewarding thing I will ever have to do. This past Sunday the church sermon was on parenting, and what an amazing sermon it was. I can't wait for our small group this Thursday to talk about it with other young adults. I foresee a lot of prayers, a lot of tears, and a lot of mistakes throughout this journey. 

Speaking of Little Anthony, he is one active little boy the past few days. I have watched my stomach morph into some pretty contorted shapes, and have seen what could be a foot or hand wave across my belly button, which is still an innie, thank goodness. I joke and say its the Shamu show, and it's really starting to look that way from the outside. I can not only feel his movements, I can actually see them outside of my clothing. It's amazing and kind of creepy all at the same time. I read in my pregnancy book that women are supposed to count the kicks daily to make sure baby is healthy, and they say that like 6 in an hour is ideal, and I really think Anthony far surpasses that 6 mark. I can tell his movements are more fluid now, and they definitely are a lot stronger than previous weeks. Sometimes, I feel like I'm literally bruised from the inside out, and I know it's only going to get "worse" as time goes on and he gets bigger. Maybe he'll be a soccer player, or something else as equally athletic. The book also says he weighs about 2lbs now. Wow! I am realizing I have to sleep only on my left side or I get this awful sensation that I can't breathe and my arms go numb. Must be another fun pregnancy symptom. I can't even flip from my left to right side anymore as I get this awful headache and become short of breath. I haven't been able to sleep on my back in quite some time. I do have a wedge pillow that I fear might be time to start using. It will allow me to sleep on my back but at a significant incline to take pressure off my diaphragm and allow me to literally breathe easier. The problem is, with all the other pillows I seem to require these days, I don't know how there will be room in the bed for JJ. :-) I am already taking up more than my share of our queen size bed, and unfortunately our couch isn't all that comfortable to be sleeping on long term. Maybe it's time to take over the recliner and learn to sleep in that over night. It seems like everything has become quite the ordeal.